Letter from Julia Charlton to Thomas J.
Charlton dated May 19th, 1865
My own Darling:
I received your letter of the 26th of April yesterday. I was sorry to see you were so low spirited. How I wish I was with you to cheer you up and help you bear this great sorrow. My hope in ajust and merciful God is strong and finn. You must be patient darling. His ways are mysterious but "perfect love is over them all". His end has been heavily laid upon us. Let us try and bear it patiently in his own good time he will hear our prayers and bless us. We poor creatures of the dust should not question his wisdom and justice.
I am so thankful that you are still spared to me and that I have the hope of soon seeing you, that I can think of nothing else. Don't distress yourself about the fiture, We have health and strength and can work. I am willing to do my part and will ? to do it faithfully and cheerfully. Cheered by your presence. I can do anything and if we can have a shelter and food to eat, I think we ought to be happy and if we are not we don't deserve to be. I will not begin by saying what I can and will do for I am but an imperfect creature at best and have many faults. But I hope with God to do my duty faithfully in this our hour of sorrow. Don't despair darling the sky may look dark and lowering but the star of hope is shining behind the clouds and will one day break through their darkness and flood our pathway with his joyous light. Yes we will as surely have justice just as surely as there is a righteous God above us.
If you have not already started for home I don't think you have best be too hasty about it. If you could by any means make your ? anywhere in Europe it should be best for you to remain. Our cause is entirely lost, there is no longer any confederacy for you to serve. And you have no idea of the humiliation and ? to which our people are subjected. I don't think you could stand it The negroes are perfectly ? and insult us whenever they please. And we have no redress. It is very difficult to get a servant to do anything for you even when they are paid for their services.
I met this afternoon one of the most respectable ladies in our city coming from the pump with a pitcher of water. Many ladies do all their house work and some do their cooking. I have been fortunate, was without a nurse only a few weeks. I now have an excellent colored girl a ? one who has always been free. She is very amiable and quiet , very kind to the baby and will do anything I wish to have her do. Mother hires Mann Rose and Patience, so we get along very comfortably. Papa manages ? to get enough for us to eat
The baby had quite a sick spell and is thin, but much better than he was
a week ago. I think a change would do him good I am quite well but have never
been as thin as I am. Aunt Caroline has sent me an urgent invitation to go
to her house and make her a visit Says she will do all she can for my comfort
Papa wants me to go but I don't want to leave home until I am certain about
your movements. Mr. Christian said he would go to Europe if he had means
enough to take him there. Some of our wealthiest people are reduced to
poverty but this would be little could we but bring back our noble dead.
Alas how many vacant chairs in the households, how many homes are desolate.
Many of our soldiers are returning to their homes. I meet many of dear
Wallies'? comrades on this street and oh how it makes my heart ache whenever
I think of my dear noble brother in his cold grave cut down in the bloom of
his young precious? life.
I hope soon to have another letter from you telling me what you will do.
You must not be too sad to write one. I am afraid your long absence wrenched
your love from me in you sadness you should feel more like writing me and
let me share your sorrow. I am writing this not knowing whether you will ever
still with us. May God bless, protect and comfort you Accept a heart full of
love and sympathy from yours ever
Little Tom sends a kiss.